Gabrielle Union is opening up once again as she discusses her journey with fertility and how she felt when she learned her now husband, Dwayne Wade, was expecting having a baby with another woman!
"n 2013, before we were married, Dwyane had a baby with another woman. It should go without saying that we were not in a good place at the time that child was conceived," Union wrote. "But we were doing much better when he finally told me about the pregnancy. To say I was devastated is to pick a word on a low shelf for convenience....There are people — strangers I will never meet — who have been upset that I have not previously talked about that trauma. I have not had words, and even after untold amounts of therapy I am not sure I have them now."
Gabrielle previously shared she has had struggles with infertility, experiencing multiple IVF treatments. Union also divulged she's had "eight or nine" miscarriages
In the TIME Magazine piece, she also recalls considering taking the drug Lupron to help her conceive. The drug is known to have intense side effects that could include early menopause and brittle bones. She stated she was going to go through with it until until Wade told her "You've done enough."
"I didn't receive this as concern at the time," she wrote. "It sounded like an acknowledgment of failure. Because at that point I would have sold my soul to get out of the endless cycle of loss. What was the going rate for souls? What was mine worth, anyway? The experience of Dwyane having a baby so easily — while I was unable to — left my soul not just broken into pieces, but shattered into fine dust scattering in the wind."
She continued, "Clearly, my feelings weren't originating from a healthy place. So much of what made the decision so difficult was that if I didn't submit to a surrogacy, then I was convinced I needed to let Dwyane go. Even if he didn't want to, I had to let him find someone who could give him what he wanted."
Union eventually did decide to use a surrogate and successfully had their baby girl Kaavia. Check out the entire TIME piece here!